we miss you

When someone you love dies

A part of yourself dies too

For as much as that person’s life did not belong to you

Your heart belonged to them

You feel a physical hurt

Even when you do your best to cherish every moment with them, you will never be ready to let them depart

But what I have discovered and I’m sure mami is helping from the sky

Is that our loved ones never really leave us

Physically they leave us, but spiritually they don’t

And that our task is to let people we have loved and lost be alive in ourselves, memorializing their significance.

“Anybody who has lost someone they love has to find a new way of loving that person, since hugs and kisses are no longer an option.”

We don’t have to say goodbye.

Our mom lives still and forever with and through each and everyone of us

Que serait le monde sans toi ?

Que serait le monde sans toi ?

The world is without you and i cannot believe it.

I remember when I bought you this card and I really did not believe that this time would ever happen…but it did and I am still living and here to witness the pain and sorrow in the air. All the experiences we shared have become memories, and we will never ever share anything else anymore. It is unconceivable to me; my brain really cannot comprehend such a sad tragedy. All the things that you have left behind remind me of your sweet character and I just want to hug you and tell you how much I miss you and tell you how good you were to me and how loved I felt by you and so much more that I cannot describe in words.

I am strengthening my faith and I am pretty sure that you must be somewhere out there; I just wish that you were with me because I still want you beside me. Because I cannot wait until I die to see you again and I am not even sure about that. And I don’t have the strength to go on living without you by my side.

I don’t want to mourn, I want you back. I want to go back in time and figure out what went wrong, what was it that triggered that sickness in you that we could not stop. It is too late now, they put concrete on you, I am so sorry to have to say it this harshly, you were and are such a sweet person and please don’t be sad coz we will all be there soon. It just means I think that there is no way back L and this makes me sad.

I had a dream the other night that I figured out where I went wrong and we were able to get you back but then I remembered that they put concrete on top of you and that it was an obstacle to get you back to life. Do you know when I dream about u?

Roger just called me he said that he had a dream about you last night. He said he had a dream about the three of us. We were in Faraya Mzaar and he said that your only worry was to make sure I was ok and that you were taking care of me (as always). He was trying to explain it and he said that it probably meant that you left earlier than the rest of us just to prepare the place for us , so that when we could join you everything would be ok…or maybe to help us from up there in our lives down here….i didn’t really get it..