Don't want to speak..

Listen to: Homesick

What the hell !?!!!

Listen to: Virtual Insanity

The art of changing constantly...

i am not unstable i am just versatile

Listen to : Lemon tree

How to fix small imperfections...

Listen to : run run run

Dont try to change people's nature...

A story popular in Lebanon at the time of its bank crisis tells of a scorpion on the bank of the Nile who asked a frog to ferry him to the other side.

"Oh no, " the frog said. You would sting me."

"That's ridiculous," the scorpion replied," because then I would drown."

Convinced, the frog took the scorpion on his back and began to swim the river. In midstream, the scorpion's lethal urge became too strong and he plunged his stinger into the frog's neck.

The sinking frog groaned, "Why, why?"

The scorpion gave final shrug and replied, "this is the Middle East:"

It was just in his nature…

What a selfish world! but i still love it

Listen to : Black Is The Color

Queen is my medicine

Turn up the volume and

listen to: Bohemian Rhapsody

6 month...

It has been 6 month already

Actually it feels longer…life is so sad sometimes

I miss you so much mami

Listen to:Truly Madly Deeply

Luck doesn't smile twice

Life is just so hard sometimes...

We never appreciate what we have until we loose it...

And when we know we are going to loose it we just freak out...

It is really hard to live the moment and enjoy it when you know it is not gonna last forever...

Listen to: Águas de Março

To be conscious that it is going to end and still make the most of it, is that doable, is that wisdom or is it just a waste of time??

Dance like nobody's looking...

Listen to: Ciranda Da Bailarina

Losing simple things...

"La souffrance est une école de l'âme, d'humilité. On apprend à être humain. Mgr Bernard Genoud n'est pas fâché avec Dieu, qu'il a servi toute sa vie sans jamais le moindre regret: je le sens. Il est toujours là. Si je ferme les yeux. Je le vois.

Perdre les choses simples de la vie ne l'effraie pas, tout comme l'idée même de la mort: Quand je serai avec Dieu, je serai avec le modèle. Je ne serai privé de rien. Je me réjouis"

Read more on: mgr-bernard-genoud-ferme-yeux-vois

New life New furniture

Totally unsure about what im doing still doing it though.

And in case i have the urge to run away (which is my specialty) i have decided to tie my self up to this place, or to put it in another way, make it more comfortable for me.

Now i could be making a real bad choice and 10 years later i will be so sorry for that, or maybe i just read way too many self help books…

I will just have to stick to this i can't keep on changing my mind (unfortunately), i actually can but i have decided to act like an adult and act as rationally as possible

And if you're sad just close your eyes and imagine the summer sun ... and imagine it'll stay like that for eternity

Craving to be happy...

The idea is to remain in a state of constant departure while always arriving. Saves on introductions and goodbyes..

So true…though so unstable

How to go around that without trying to control people we meet or situations we face…

Shall we let them control us?

Be open to change…

Does that mean , not to care about what happens anymore

Not to make any effort to achieve what we always dreamed about

Or that let the world fool us with supperfical appetite for things we don’t need, things we never thought of and make us forget who we really are

I think I donno who I really am anymore

But I will make sure no matter who that is, I will make her happy

Never say goodbye, because saying goodbye means going away, and going away means forgetting - Peter Pan

Live for fun and sun and meeting happy people

Happy people have a different way of thinking and doing things. They maintain a positive attitude about people, things and life in general.

Anyhow there is a great story by Eliezer Yudkowsky (the_super_happy_people), where he describes the conflict among three civilizations: the humans (us), the Baby-Eaters (who want the humans to start eating their babies) and the Super-Happies (who want everyone to be super happy and are incapable of pain and suffering).

A dilemma arises whereby humans can either accept genetic reprogramming to make humans compatible with the Super-Happies, or, the humans can escape this "awful fate", but at great cost - by blowing up a solar system, sacrificing billions of people.

For some reason, most people, seem to think it self-evident that humanity ought to preserve its nature and sacrifice the several billion people to avoid merging with Super-Happies.

Ok I must admit I am going into extremes and he is going a little nuts, but wanting to remain human over super happy????? Don’t really get it…

Help !!!!

It's all coming back again... the rain , the excess work, the loneliness ...

This is not what i signed up for !

Two sides to a coin & a million to me

Everytime i meet someone i seem to fade into their personality….i like strong characters and the problem with those is that they tend to have a complex and sophisticated aura which when you get involved with, you cannot help but experiencing a considerable metamorphosis. So at the end you start wondering where does your real self end and the other's begin?

Listen to: Relax and take it easy....

Essentially we are physical beings, amorphous entities but when we start to mingle, a powerful energy starts to create, sometimes through emotions sometimes through adventures and sometimes through endless discussions. Some people strive on these things, long for these things and feel dead between these kinds of episodes in their lives, no mater how confusing they are.

I feel they rob me of my own real identity, if that really exists….then again people might say why are you bothering to think about all that; its drastically superfluous and an enormous loss of energy and time...

Well these people are a drastical loss of my energy and my time

Create Create Create

Destiny where are you taking me ?

So ya for the first time in a long long time i have taken a decision based on my own needs and judgments

I am proud of this, i really feel that this have made me grow up.

Now maybe I will not be able to get what I want but then it will really be my choice and I will respect myself for it

Now of course I am not sure that what I decided is right, but then again what is right and what is wrong?

Anyhow there are no guarantees and way too many possible outcomes, the worst thing that can happen is to take no decision and stagnate, the best is to take the risk and try to win or even loose, coz the trip is always an adventure and adventures are fun!

So we have the choice between being a lost traveler or an accidental tourist of life…..

They forgot to teach me in second grade not to care about what others think of me…

The truth is that we have to make our decisions alone. And I did it alone.

It is a scary process when one has had his heart shattered by circumstance…but we cannot unfortunately stay sad and cry all the time expecting someone to come pick us up…

Anyhow the whole point being that no matter where we live we need to find peace in our surrounding, we have to build our space so that it reflects us but also alows us to grow and find peace: a place where we can silence all external noise and focus our attention on our own very existence….easier said than done..

“We are accustomed to look for these pleasures in the green outdoors where, to be sure, they are present in their purest and most immediate form; but the need for a satisfying sensory experience is with us no matter where we are, and nowhere is that experience more intense (though not always more agreeable) than in the modern city.”

Every once in a while I find myself slide back towards a relapse …

It is really discouraging, especially when you think that everything has started to go right on track to fall back … I guess life needs much more discipline that I am willing to give it. They say its all about constant effort, and if put in small amounts it will not suck your energy away. But having a very passionate character makes me fall into extremes, which makes this discipline factor harder to acquire and balance harder to achieve. Running away or blaming others? my typical attempts to perfect a disrupted situation.