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Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Found in my mom's belongings

Holding grudge for someone shows emotional imbalance


A grudge is defined as "resentment strong enough to justify retaliation". Everyone has, at some time or other, been hurt deeply by someone close. Bitterness about the person or situation leads to a grudge.
Personal injustice ignites resentment in heart, which turns into a grudge. Since grudge is a form of resentment, a person who bears grudge may become revengeful. Instead of focusing on what he needs to solve a problem, for instance, he may spend most of his time thinking of ways to get back at whom he resents. This can be dangerous for there is a possibility of injuries.

When someone hurts us, a natural human reaction is to hurt them back. Our very nature spurs us to settle the score, to get even. Usually we forgive the offender over the time as the intensity weakens over period. If we do not forgive the offender the only alternatives are to try revenge, or decide to hold a grudge. The person who hurt us might not even know how angry and bitter we feel. Our emotions of hate and anger continue to aggravate at their supposed indifference. Isn't it ridiculous that in supposedly getting even with another, the only ones we hurt are ourselves at all health levels, physically, spiritually and emotionally.

A grudge pours its corrosive bitterness into us, arrogating our entire being. Soon the door will be open for envy, malice, jealousy, bitterness, gossip, and slander to come and visit. We will stop at nothing to even the score against the other party. Holding a grudge will only devour you from inside out, eventually turning you into a bitter person. All this happens because you refuse to forgive the one who hurt you. The price to pay is too high.

If we have a grudge, we feel guilty. We will sub-consciously feel unaccepted and we will never feel fully forgiven. Holding a grudge keeps life running on rewind, preventing us from moving on with life and looking forward to the future. We keep looking over our shoulders at some past injustice we experienced. We recall how awful it was. A grudge handcuffs us to this negative past, causing us to irrationally dwell on the past and blame our present failures on past misfortunes.

Releasing this grudge can bring happiness and release. Carrying a grudge pokes holes in our energy bucket. We will feel constantly tired, weary, and lethargic. Fatigue is the faithful companion of a grudge. At the end of each day you will collapse in exhaustion, wondering why we feel so fatigued. It is because we are wasting great amounts of unconscious energy maintaining our grudge. Releasing this grudge through forgiveness will result in a brand new surge of emotional and physical energy. It is difficult, if not impossible, to forgive an offense. Our memory has been created in such a way that it will contain all the events of your lives. It is conceivable that you can remember everything that ever occurred in your life, especially painful experiences, or more so the feelings resulting from these experiences.

Therefore, when we cannot forget an offense, we can choose not to dwell on it. We cannot fully erase the memory banks of our mind but we do have the power to refuse to think on past injustices, once forgiven.

The best way to deal with a grudge is to stop thinking about the grudge itself and focus on accomplishing important goals. We will gain satisfaction and self-worth from accomplishing these goals. Conversely, the worst possible way to deal with a grudge would be to dwell on it. If we push ahead and create a satisfying life, we will feel less frustrated and less angry. It will take our mind off your grudge. We will be more willing to take responsibility for our actions, and our need to blame will dissipate. We will not want to taint our happiness by being ungracious. In essence, getting ahead in our lives will come to be more important than getting even. Hate begets hate. Happiness begets happiness.

The best way to forget is to improve our behavior and circumstances until we feel safe enough to let go of bitter memories. If someone has upset us in the past, try to work out an informal agreement with the person so you can feel reasonably sure it will not happen again.

Often the reasons of "holding a grudge for someone" are more mental than physical. A bad relationship, poor self image, a history of abuse, stress, frustration and many other factors can change your overall attitude towards life which may directly impede your overall performance. Such tendencies are deep-rooted in mind and nurtured by excessive Negative Emotions.

It is needless to mention that these negative emotions are tremendously powerful. They can debilitate lives extremely quick by causing disparity in energy system, which triggers a sequence of emotional imbalance (i.e. frustration, melancholia, persistent agony, mental instability, uncontrolled anger, inferiority complex etc.), which ultimately culminates in ill health.

Monday, November 28, 2011

From my mom


Friday, November 25, 2011

Choose to feel the magic

                                                                  Illustration by Serge Bloch

We can choose to enjoy the magic of this time of year. We may not always get to choose the people and circumstances around us, but we always have a choice about how we relate to them.
— Mike Robbins

Thursday, November 24, 2011

La flamme intérieure... cette présence ultra-sensible et indestructible...Denis Jaccard


La première fois où une personne m'a parlé d'une présence ultra-sensible et indestructible au coeur de chaque être humain, j'ai d'abord souri avant de me questionner. Qu'est-ce que cela peut bien vouloir dire ? Comment est-il possible qu'une présence vivante au coeur de chaque être humain puisse être simultanément ultra-sensible et indestructible ?
C'était il y a quelques années et je dois vous avouer qu'il m'a fallu du temps pour appréhender le sens profond de cette image. A cette époque, j'étais encore habité par mes certitudes cartésiennes et mes habitudes logiques. Lorsque l'on a été informaticien comme je l'ai été, il y a des schémas de pensées qui restent ancrés bien longtemps. Une ampoule ne peut pas être allumée et éteinte en même temps tout comme un être humain ne peut avoir peur et confiance en même temps.
Depuis, fort heureusement, les choses ont changé et j'ai pu apprendre à envisager les choses avec davantage de souplesse, d'ouverture et de créativité. Aujourd'hui, j'ai cette conviction qu'il est possible de se sentir triste et heureux en même temps tout comme il y a, en notre coeur, une présence à la fois ultra-sensible et indestructible.
La flamme d'une bougie peut apporter cette présence qui réchauffe et éclaire comme elle peut produire cette force qui blesse et qui détruit. Il suffit d'un léger souffle pour éteindre la flamme de l'allumette alors que l'incendie de forêt allumé par cette même flamme paraîtra indestructible.
Les similitudes entre la flamme de la bougie ou de l'allumette et la flamme intérieure sont nombreuses. Comme la flamme de la bougie ou de l'allumette, la flamme intérieure a besoin d'oxygène pour exister. Comme la flamme de la bougie ou de l'allumette, la flamme intérieure est constamment en mouvement dans une chorégraphie à la fois imprévisible et souple. Dans sa définition même, la flamme est le symbole de lumière, de vie, de passion et d'amour.
Lorsque j'étais petit garçon, je me souviens que j'avais la chance de pouvoir me rendre dans un atelier d'artisanat où j'avais le droit de fabriquer des bougies. Je garde un souvenir très puissant des pots remplis de cire de toutes les couleurs dans lesquels je plongeais la mèche de ma bougie. Au fur et à mesure des passages de la mèche dans la cire, la bougie devenait de plus en plus épaisse et resplendissante de milles couleurs. Sur le chemin du retour, c'est avec une fierté rayonnante que je portais mes bougies. Je les rangeais précieusement afin qu'elles puissent sécher dans les meilleures conditions. Lorsque Noël approchait, je sortais mes bougies et les installais sur les plus beaux bougeoirs de la maison. Cependant, il était hors de question de les allumer. Je ne supportais pas l'idée qu'elles puissent se consumer et disparaître. Même si mes parents me répétaient sans cesse que c'était dommage de ne pas pouvoir profiter de leur belle lumière et de leur chaleur, je ne pouvais me résoudre à cette éventualité.
Il y a quelques mois, l'occasion m'a été offerte de participer à un atelier de création de bougies. A nouveau, cette sensation formidable d'émerveillement m'a habité lorsque je plongeais la mèche dans la cire. Les souvenirs de mon enfance se mélangeaient à mon expérience d'adulte. Maintenant, mes bougies sont bien rangées dans l'armoire en train de sécher. Tout semble pareil et, pourtant, il y a une très grande différence. Cette fois, j'ai pris l'engagement, à l'occasion des fêtes de fin d'année, de les allumer et de leur offrir le plaisir de briller dans les yeux de mes enfants. Ces bougies ont été conçues pour briller et réchauffer et rien ne pourra les empêcher de vivre pleinement leur destinée.
La flamme intérieure qui nous habite est intimement reliée à la vie qui bat en nous. Je ne sais pas si notre destinée est écrite quelque part où si nous sommes appelés à la créer de toutes pièces. Ce dont je suis certain, en revanche, c'est que cette flamme est précieuse et unique. En acceptant d'oser faire face à la réalité terrible que cette flamme ne durera pas toujours, alors nous pourrons encore mieux apprécier sa valeur. En nous reliant à sa dimension ultra-sensible, nous avons l'opportunité d'apprivoiser et d'accepter notre sensibilité et notre vulnérabilité. Cette facette de nous-même avec laquelle nous pouvons être si souvent en conflit et qui nous empêche d'être pleinement authentique. Comme le disait si justement Carl Rogers (l'un des pères de la psychologie humaniste), c'est lorsque je réussis enfin à m'accepter tel que je suis que je commence à pouvoir changer.
Aller à la rencontre de sa flamme intérieure constitue le premier pas essentiel dans la quête de Soi. Le voyage permettant cette rencontre nécessite un grand courage empreint d’humilité. Seul le courage humble permet d'appréhender la réalité de la vie dans sa vérité la plus absolue. Ne faut-il pas un grand courage empreint d’humilité pour oser s’émerveiller devant la valeur d’un bien aussi inestimable et unique ? Un bien irremplaçable qui peut, sans crier gare, me quitter ou quitter ceux que j’aime.
Lorsque ce courage humble vient à me manquer, deux scénarios se manifestent. Dans le premier, je fuis dans un monde illusoire où j’ai l’impression que la vie durera toujours et que rien, jamais, ne disparaîtra. Enivré par l’illusion, j’en oublie de vivre pleinement chaque jour de ma vie. Dans le deuxième scénario, les chaînes de la peur m’emprisonnent de façon implacable. Terrassé par la peur de mourir ou de perdre ce à quoi je tiens le plus au monde, je deviens incapable de célébrer ce bien si précieux qu’est la vie. C'est pourquoi il faut un grand courage pour oser rencontrer cette flamme intérieure dans sa vérité absolue et admirer sa force indestructible et sa vulnérabilité ultra-sensible.

The Journey - Mary oliver

One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice—
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
"Mend my life!"
each voice cried.
But you didn't stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do—
determined to save
the only life you could save.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

What inspires me the most are real life stories..


When seeing, hearing or reading about some people's experiences I just feel like my brains is in total synchronicity with my soul and I am like : "we humans have unlimited power".

It all came from my mother, who was my number one fan and admirer, she loved everything I did and believed that I have magical powers, and her enthusiasm was so powerful that it made me love being me!

I felt so lucky to be me and thought that regardless of my chubby body I wouldn’t trade myself with anyone else.

Until the teenage hormonal changes started, where chubby turned into fat and my mom's advice into annoying nagging. It was a dark period but still a powerful learning experience.

Today I am almost 32 and can surely recount some moments that were pretty tough, where it felt more like the end than the beginning of a new phase.  It felt so painful to be me, to be fat to be ugly to be depressed or maybe to perceive myself that way. 

During those hard times, God sent me little angles, his inspiration through books, through personal biographies, where normal people that were having a hard time pulled themselves together to live the life they were destined for.

Those people are my inspiration; if they did it, then I can do it even if I am to stumble on the way there.

Friday, November 11, 2011

Gratitude

Our world is pretty messed up. With all the violence, pollution and crazy things people do, it would be easy to turn into a grouchy old man without being either elderly or male. There's certainly no shortage of justification for disappointment and cynicism.

But consider this: Negative attitudes are bad for you. And gratitude, it turns out, makes you happier and healthier. If you invest in a way of seeing the world that is mean and frustrated, you're going to get a world that is, well, more mean and frustrating. But if you can find any authentic reason to give thanks, anything that is going right with the world or your life, and put your attention there, then statistics say you're going to be better off.

Does this mean to live in a state of constant denial and put your head in the sand? Of course not. Gratitude works when you're grateful for something real. Feeling euphoric and spending money like you just won the lottery when you didn't is probably going to make you real poor, real quick. But what are you actually grateful for? It's a question that could change your life.

Recent studies have concluded that the expression of gratitude can have profound and positive effects on our health, our moods and even the survival of our marriages.

As Drs. Blaire and Rita Justice reported for the University of Texas Health Science Center, "a growing body of research shows that gratitude is truly amazing in its physical and psychosocial benefits."

In one study on gratitude, conducted by Robert A. Emmons, Ph.D., at the University of California at Davis and his colleague Mike McCullough at the University of Miami, randomly assigned participants were given one of three tasks.

Each week, participants kept a short journal. One group briefly described five things they were grateful for that had occurred in the past week, another five recorded daily hassles from the previous week that displeased them, and the neutral group was asked to list five events or circumstances that affected them, but they were not told whether to focus on the positive or on the negative.
Ten weeks later, participants in the gratitude group felt better about their lives as a whole and were a full 25 percent happier than the hassled group. They reported fewer health complaints, and exercised an average of 1.5 hours more.

In a later study by Emmons, people were asked to write every day about things for which they were grateful. Not surprisingly, this daily practice led to greater increases in gratitude than did the weekly journaling in the first study. But the results showed another benefit: Participants in the gratitude group also reported offering others more emotional support or help with a personal problem, indicating that the gratitude exercise increased their goodwill towards others, or more tehnically, their "pro-social" motivation.

Another study on gratitude was conducted with adults having congenital and adult-onset neuromuscular disorders (NMDs), with the majority having post-polio syndrome (PPS). Compared to those who were not jotting down their blessings nightly, participants in the gratitude group reported more hours of sleep each night, and feeling more refreshed upon awakening. The gratitude group also reported more satisfaction with their lives as a whole, felt more optimism about the upcoming week, and felt considerably more connected with others than did participants in the control group.

Perhaps most tellingly, the positive changes were markedly noticeable to others. According to the researchers, "Spouses of the participants in the gratitude (group) reported that the participants appeared to have higher subjective well-being than did the spouses of the participants in the control (group)."

There's an old saying that if you've forgotten the language of gratitude, you'll never be on speaking terms with happiness. It turns out this isn't just a fluffy idea. Several studies have shown depression to be inversely correlated to gratitude. It seems that the more grateful a person is, the less depressed they are.

Philip Watkins, a clinical psychologist at Eastern Washington University, found that clinically depressed individuals showed significantly lower gratitude (nearly 50 percent less) than non-depressed controls.

Dr. John Gottman at the University of Washington has been researching marriages for two decades. The conclusion of all that research, he states, is that unless a couple is able to maintain a high ratio of positive to negative encounters (5:1 or greater), it is likely the marriage will end.

With 90 percent accuracy, Gottman says he can predict, often after only three minutes of observation, which marriages are likely to flourish and which are likely to flounder. The formula is that for every negative expression (a complaint, frown, put-down, expression of anger) there needs to be about five positive ones (smiles, compliments, laughter, expressions of appreciation and gratitude).

Apparently, positive vibes aren't just for hippies. If you want in on the fun, here are some simple things you can do to build positive momentum toward a more happy and fulfilling life:

1) Keep a daily journal of three things you are thankful for. This works well first thing in the morning, or just before you go to bed.
2) Make it a practice to tell a spouse, partner or friend something you appreciate about them every day.
3) Look in the mirror when you are brushing your teeth, and think about something you have done well recently or something you like about yourself.

Sure this world gives us plenty of reasons to despair. But when we get off the fast track to morbidity, and cultivate instead an attitude of gratitude, things don't just look better -- they actually get better. Thankfulness feels good, it's good for you and it's a blessing for the people around you, too. It's such a win-win-win that I'd say we have cause for gratitude.

Ocean Robbins is an author, speaker, facilitator, movement builder and father. To learn more about his work or to get a free copy of his mini-book "The Power of Partnership," visit www.oceanrobbins.com. To learn more about his family's journey with autism, gratitude and miracles, click here.

Self preservation


Wednesday, November 09, 2011

Good fortune

Don't just sit and wait for good fortune to come to you. Good
fortune is something that comes from you.

Good fortune unfolds when you truly believe, with no doubt,
that you have it. Good fortune comes to be when you give it
a compelling reason to be.

Good fortune is not merely something your mind constructs.
It is something your essential spirit expresses and
incorporates into your life.

How thankful can you be? That's what will determine how
fortunate you are.

How much can you appreciate what you have? That will
determine the value of what you have, and the good fortune
that you are able to make with it.

Allow life's abundance to become your good fortune. Be
thankful for every little thing, and discover how truly
fortunate you are.

Friday, November 04, 2011

Wednesday, November 02, 2011

This too shall pass

Don't seek perfection
                       But seek authenticity